I've never been good at letting go
But I'm good at burning bridges
My attachment style is chaotic, fukt up
Anxious, avoidant, insecure, crazy hell
These are things that I'm sure you know
And then I found myself breaking up with you
This is one of the hardest things
I've ever had to do
You knew my secrets
I've always struggled with vulnerability
but I bared my soul to you
You saw things that no one else would ever see
You knew my fears and my regrets
You were my safe person
and support
We spent years together
And I knew that if we ever ended
There'd be no replacement
There'd be no other
I swore it
I meant it
Then the unthinkable happened
So I needed to hear the truth from you
It hurt like hell but I had to end it
You chose him instead of what's best for me
I'm not one to cry
But I'm going on four days now
Thinking of you hurts
It cuts deep
I metaphorically cover myself in dirt
I don't wanna eat
I can barely sleep
Every time I think of you, I cry
People ask if I'm okay
But I'm not and I lie
I tell them everything is alright
I tell them I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
Yet tears escape my eyes
I'm really not okay
I die inside
I need refuge
But now can't find it in you
I doubt you meant to
But you created this irreparable damage
I don't know how
But somehow I'll manage
To cope with the betrayal and pain
And knowing that when you chose him
You became unsafe for me
I turn up my playlist, "Becuz I'm Not Okay"
Surely these songs will help along the way
I'll write like I always do
My words heavy, but not few
I'll read the books
Connect to my emotions while I look
We both didn't want this to end
But choices have consequences
And impact is more important than intent
So I had to walk away
I had to go
I couldn't stick around
I miss you
I miss the thought of you
I miss the woman that I thought I knew
Maybe in time
It won't hurt when you cross my mind
It's sad and it sucks
That we had to end like this
I hate that I had to find myself
Breaking up with you
Burning bridges
